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Relying on faith...

Today I've had to do a lot of reflecting- ok, more talking.
Talking about my fears of birth.
The answer given to me is that God is in charge of everything and to rely completely on him for help, strength and guidance.

It's interesting how the devil likes to make you think he's in charge.
But the truth is that that's a lie.
The truth is that he is not in charge of what happens in life.
God is the one in charge.


What a relief it is to know that right?

No matter what statistics say, no matter what people say
God is in charge.

This pregnancy has had it's highs and lows, and it's also taught me a lot of lessons. I've also gotten some answers to some things here and there along the way.
I am hoping and putting my trust in God that everything will work out how it's supposed to and that no matter what we can have a happy outcome :)

It's also crazy for me to think that these are some of the last moments "alone" with just Carter! Pretty soon it will be Carter plus one!
I LOVE being a mom. I love having kids and being given the opportunity and responsibilities that come with parenthood.

For this birth I am excited for:

• Birthing that baby vaginally, having him placed right on my chest and with tears in my eyes saying " I DID IT!- I DID IT!" thanking God for the amazing experience of birthing a child. And having Tommy see that birth can actually be a beautiful thing :) (I am trying to be positive here ok?) If God has a different plan/outcome, that's ok too because he's in charge. But this is what I vizualize and hope for. If I don't hope, I don't have faith it can happen. And this is indeed what I hope for!

• Really just having a great calm relaxed birth, that goes smoothly and quickly! And without all the drugs I was subjected to last time- necessary for that situation but let's face it, who wants to be all drugged up anyway.... ok some people do- I personally don't like it however...
  

• Showing Carter his new brother and seeing his reaction for the first time! That is definitely an exciting moment I am so ecstatic about!

Ok, I have written down some of the things on my mind.
This baby can come now.
I believe if I keep my focus on God, he will watch over and help me through this! I dedicate this birth to him. God you're in charge... Ready? Set, go.

Do I look bigger?

So I know I haven't posted. There have been good reasons, but I'm not going into them.
but I plan on trying to keep up on this now.

Ok... so I haven't posted a lot of updates-

Here is the current me with the basketball...

This was taken right before I had Cart. I was wanting to compare the two...

Perfect!!

I did it! I finally after years and years (ok, maybe more like months)
I finally have the PERFECT most PERFECT PAINT COLOR!!!
Do you know what this means?!!!!

No more stupid paint samples and painting
No more confusion
No more restless nights dreaming of where the color exists! (that might be taking things too far)

At last I can start to making accessories to decorate and stop worrying about the dang backdrop.
Yes I might be a little carried away with this, but if you can understand what it's like to be an artist and be completely picky with the smallest value change, hue, intensity etc.... then you can understand my grief.

Yes ladies and gentlemen, I give you
"Halo" from Benjamin Moore. Hallelujah!!!

It's the most perfect warm grey ever.

*hearts and kisses*

And his name shall be....

Brigham!!

Unless that changes when he's blessed.
He will definitely be known as "Briggs" around these parts...

Possibly more information about THIS to be disclosed at a later time if I so feel to share.

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Fireworks

We started our celebrating at Fudruckers. Of course getting little mini to eat his food was a challenge in a place like that filled with lots of entertaining lights and video games...

Next we dropped by Old Navy to get him a flag shirt so I he would feel festive on this glorious red, white and blue day.

I told the Mr. it wouldn't be the 4th without visiting the booths at the Freedom Festival. It turned out to be quite fun for the little tyke. They had a bounce house which he just LOVED, and they had all sorts of free crafts going on.

I even decided to butt in and paint a wimpy looking flag on his face, rather then waiting in line for a "professional" (non- professional) artist to do the job.

There were reptiles to view, balloons to blow up, bracelets to make, and a piece of art you could create, which I of course had him participate in (just so I could hang it up in my art room :) )




Then after a long day of events, we bought a couple of day time fireworks +sparklers to try out.

We bought some of those growing snake ones and as soon as we lit it he exclaimed
"Whoa! Poopies!"

Yes, he does have an imagination. That's exactly what they look like!

Carter was excited for the "fire" part. Less excited about the ones that made noise.
(I don't mind a hug)

Then we finished the day watching fireworks with his cousin Maleah.
Needless to say, he had a blast.

Cute cute nursery

Love this nursery from katestockman.blogspot.com
It seriously makes me want to paint over the buzz mural and do it like this one!

Today is good

I managed to get out of bed feeling rested (which is ALWAYS a bonus)
I put laundry in, I did a load of dishes and got all the crap off my counter so it looks presentable :)


Right now I'm eating Hagen Dazs ice cream *of course it's the chocolate peanut butter*
I'm listening to the sound of the dishwasher run.


Carter and I had a good fulfilling lunch including a plate of veggies- which he willingly ate some
(my boy is such a good eater!)





We had plans to go get trees for our yard since they're 60% off at shopko right now- totally excited because trees are flippin expensive!
But...
Then Carters aunties and Uncle came over and talked about seeing a movie for FHE. And they mention Cars 2 and got my little guy all excited....

Plus
on Mondays all day long at our local theatre, all movies are only $3.00.
And since I love that little guy more then trees and life itself, I decided we're going to attempt a movie tonight.
In a theatre

We'll just see how this goes. He wasn't too cooperative with our "Rio" experience, but maybe Cars will be way more exciting for him. After all, he is a Cars addict.

So I told him if he went down for a nap, then when he woke up, we would go see cars with the Mr.
And I promise, he will mention that the moment he wakes up.

Healthily full and taking a nap he is, while I sit here with my chocolate and peanut butter listening to the dishwasher.

it's a Good day.

Blessed

Today I am especially grateful to God.

He has blessed my life abundantly

He has given me my life

My body ( even though i complain about it a lot) I am grateful

My husband

My boy + 1

my family

My toes still intact

My art

My home

Nature

Baby kicks

Date nights

Knowledge+information

Chocolate

Love

Cafe rio

Sleep (when/if I can get it)

Flip flops

Carter smiles and giggles (*the best!)

Tootsie pops

And my porch swing

(and of course I could go on and on but I will spare you the reading.)

Enjoying

the lazy days.... :)

I LOVE my patio swing in my yard.
I can easily watch Carter, be in the shade
and rest my poor toesies :)
*Today I don't even have a wrap on it!* Hurray!
Sad note: I can't wear flip flops. That's right where it sliced. Boo!
I will miss you flip flops, until a couple weeks~

Somehow I've got to figure out how to keep the little rugrat from playing golf in my garden.
We did get grass laid the other day, so in about 2 weeks we will have fresh grass to play on!

I love being outdoors
Something about being out with all my plants and my own little setting, watching the child play
makes my life feel so invigorated

On another note: It sucks finding the perfect paint color

Potty training..

That's not a diaper, it's a pull up!
Yes I have decided to make an attempt at training today!!

I mean honestly I should have started this procedure earlier when Carter was begging to use the potty.


Then lazy old me decided I'd continue being lazy. And after a couple weeks, he didn't care so much...
*smacking forehead!*


So today we are setting the timer every 30 min. to go on the potty.
Long day ahead.
(The pee thing is working out, but not so much the poop deal)

So yesterday we had the storm of a lifetime. Literally enough water poured that it's probably enough to use for several years..

We have a pond on the left side of our yard
*mind it's uphill from us... (that's our dam below it... hoping that future neighbors won't break it!)

We could have a pool party in it, that's how big it is.

And here is our pond on the right side.

And the neighbors house you're looking at are hoping we don't break that dam
or it goes to their yard.

That's what happens when you buy a house built on wetlands.....

That's how smart we are.

Long weekend...

I'm so tired.
The Mr. went for a night camping last night


I decided to let Carter sleep in my bed. Boy that was a super bad idea.
I don't know if it was just the rolling all over, or the noises he'd make, and then wake up from
(I think he was having a bad dream.)
I literally cannot function now. I need to get my thyroid checked out to see if I have hypo issues.


Yesterday evening was ok. I went to the chiropractor for the pain I've had on my right side
(I've been wearing one shoe off and one shoe on for 1 1/2 weeks now because of my split up foot)
so my hip feels like it's totally wacked out.
Then afterwords Carter and I went to look at couple plants for the yard. Dang they're expensive!
Next year I'm going to start things from seed in the early spring. That will save money...

We went to the playground after that and Carter had a blast. I decided though after noticing how emotionally and stinky girls can act, I really love having boys. I don't have to deal with the drama. (plus I think I get too involved emotionally myself) ....
It ended with us getting some things at Macey's for Fathers day and getting ice cream cones with dipped chocolate.
I have this weird thing for dipped chocolate. My parents always got it when we went out for ice cream but wouldn't let us have them because they were "too expensive".
So now everytime we go out for ice-cream, Carter gets a dipped cone. I know I know... I need to get over my childhood disappointments.



I missed the Mr. last night. I sat in the backyard, and it was beautiful. And lonely... without him. I don't like being alone. I'm glad there's another little mr. here with me. That will be weird when he's all grown up and I don't have any little mr. with me anymore- so sad to think.
I feel sad for people who don't want children. They really don't know what they're missing out on. :)

So to end on a lovely note....or not so lovely. As I was tiredly walking through the house this afternoon, I smacked my covered foot right into our folded up camping chair.
And it split the big wound right open.

Gee wiz. What a crapilisiously fun day this is going to be. I was proud of my self for being able to wear a shoe for the first time, two days in a row (even though it hurt). Now we're going back a few steps..... grr.....

Finally found somGREAT pics form house #14 in the parade of homes:
I stole these for my personal viewing from http://www.houseofturquoise.com/