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Relying on faith...

Today I've had to do a lot of reflecting- ok, more talking.
Talking about my fears of birth.
The answer given to me is that God is in charge of everything and to rely completely on him for help, strength and guidance.

It's interesting how the devil likes to make you think he's in charge.
But the truth is that that's a lie.
The truth is that he is not in charge of what happens in life.
God is the one in charge.


What a relief it is to know that right?

No matter what statistics say, no matter what people say
God is in charge.

This pregnancy has had it's highs and lows, and it's also taught me a lot of lessons. I've also gotten some answers to some things here and there along the way.
I am hoping and putting my trust in God that everything will work out how it's supposed to and that no matter what we can have a happy outcome :)

It's also crazy for me to think that these are some of the last moments "alone" with just Carter! Pretty soon it will be Carter plus one!
I LOVE being a mom. I love having kids and being given the opportunity and responsibilities that come with parenthood.

For this birth I am excited for:

• Birthing that baby vaginally, having him placed right on my chest and with tears in my eyes saying " I DID IT!- I DID IT!" thanking God for the amazing experience of birthing a child. And having Tommy see that birth can actually be a beautiful thing :) (I am trying to be positive here ok?) If God has a different plan/outcome, that's ok too because he's in charge. But this is what I vizualize and hope for. If I don't hope, I don't have faith it can happen. And this is indeed what I hope for!

• Really just having a great calm relaxed birth, that goes smoothly and quickly! And without all the drugs I was subjected to last time- necessary for that situation but let's face it, who wants to be all drugged up anyway.... ok some people do- I personally don't like it however...
  

• Showing Carter his new brother and seeing his reaction for the first time! That is definitely an exciting moment I am so ecstatic about!

Ok, I have written down some of the things on my mind.
This baby can come now.
I believe if I keep my focus on God, he will watch over and help me through this! I dedicate this birth to him. God you're in charge... Ready? Set, go.

Do I look bigger?

So I know I haven't posted. There have been good reasons, but I'm not going into them.
but I plan on trying to keep up on this now.

Ok... so I haven't posted a lot of updates-

Here is the current me with the basketball...

This was taken right before I had Cart. I was wanting to compare the two...

Perfect!!

I did it! I finally after years and years (ok, maybe more like months)
I finally have the PERFECT most PERFECT PAINT COLOR!!!
Do you know what this means?!!!!

No more stupid paint samples and painting
No more confusion
No more restless nights dreaming of where the color exists! (that might be taking things too far)

At last I can start to making accessories to decorate and stop worrying about the dang backdrop.
Yes I might be a little carried away with this, but if you can understand what it's like to be an artist and be completely picky with the smallest value change, hue, intensity etc.... then you can understand my grief.

Yes ladies and gentlemen, I give you
"Halo" from Benjamin Moore. Hallelujah!!!

It's the most perfect warm grey ever.

*hearts and kisses*

And his name shall be....

Brigham!!

Unless that changes when he's blessed.
He will definitely be known as "Briggs" around these parts...

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Fireworks

We started our celebrating at Fudruckers. Of course getting little mini to eat his food was a challenge in a place like that filled with lots of entertaining lights and video games...

Next we dropped by Old Navy to get him a flag shirt so I he would feel festive on this glorious red, white and blue day.

I told the Mr. it wouldn't be the 4th without visiting the booths at the Freedom Festival. It turned out to be quite fun for the little tyke. They had a bounce house which he just LOVED, and they had all sorts of free crafts going on.

I even decided to butt in and paint a wimpy looking flag on his face, rather then waiting in line for a "professional" (non- professional) artist to do the job.

There were reptiles to view, balloons to blow up, bracelets to make, and a piece of art you could create, which I of course had him participate in (just so I could hang it up in my art room :) )




Then after a long day of events, we bought a couple of day time fireworks +sparklers to try out.

We bought some of those growing snake ones and as soon as we lit it he exclaimed
"Whoa! Poopies!"

Yes, he does have an imagination. That's exactly what they look like!

Carter was excited for the "fire" part. Less excited about the ones that made noise.
(I don't mind a hug)

Then we finished the day watching fireworks with his cousin Maleah.
Needless to say, he had a blast.